I know my title sounds really angry
YES...I AM!!!!
Anyway I've not blog about yesterday as I was feeling kinda lazy
Everything was kinda normal
Hmm...I refused to follow my family members for breakfast as I dont feel like going
Then I stayed at home skyping with my sor lou,did my stuff,waited for him
Then the whole morning and afternoon I was at home till 2 something
The happiest period for the day =]
Went ISC with him wheee
He arrived with my favourite-egg tart,I ate all of them =P
Yummy ~ and Sweet ~ THANKIES my dear
Played badminton with him and as usual I lost haha
But I cannot believe I lost that match which I used right hand & he used left hand o.O
How could that happen????hahaha
But still I dont feel angry though I lost,yet I felt it's kinda fun
Cause he started teasing me hahahaa BUT wait!
I'm NOT saying that I feel happy when he teases me haha
I was just saying the way he teased me yesterday made me feel that it's funny
But still maybe it's because he was the one who teased me,if others...
I cannot imagine ahhahaha *so you're actually quite lucky,blerk*
After ISC,went home and yea there goes my Saturday
So today I woke up,then breakfast,then ISC,then dinner
From my house to breakfast + ISC,I was the driver
I was very energetic today as I played badminton like NON stop O.o
I want to keep fit =P but it's fun too la
Though I was quite exhausted BUT I'll not allow myself to give up in any matches
Though I lost in some of the matches,but I put hard work in all of them
So no regrets =] That's my personality LOL
Some ppl may think that it's a good thing but some may not
As it can be considered as *degil* or even *sei chang*
But to me,it's definitely a good characteristic as I'll not easily give up mar =P
So it depends on how you judge it hahaha
But the few matches that I played with sor lou were FUN :P
Though I was not partnering him but somehow it made feel FUN & CUTE?hahahaaha
Couples are meant to be sweet,but sometimes VS-ing among each other is sweet too xD
But OF COURSE not those really VS till farn min de la,that hurts
Left ISC kinda early today and saw Natalie
Anyway my legs were feelingless & strengthless just now,but now better
Came home rested a while,took my bath & went for dinner
Supposed to go *tongsuigai* but many shops were not open
So went to the place next opposite tongsuigai as we dint go there before
Along the way for dinner,everything made me feel so pissed off
Everyone has their own driving style,why do U ever bother how ppl drive
As long as she can make you reach your destination la
Why do you want to care so freaking much how ppl drive huh
But to what I see and the years I've been in this family
IF you were the driver just now,you could have did the SAME freaking thing
SO?You ngam-ed at ppl for doing that,if it's U?Can ppl ngam you?
No right????WHY ON EARTH U will have such attitude?
But I should already knew your attitude
Everyone is WRONG when you say it's RIGHT....BULLSHYT
Everyone makes mistakes,even a kid knows this
But U will think that you're forever correct
Even what you did is theorically wrong,but U'll get to make it sounds like U're right
WTH mannnn......
During the dinner,here came another case ==
It's true that we order food we need to pay
But isn't as long as customers pay before leaving,it's done la
Other days,when U're eating and ppl ask U to pay,U em song and scolded ppl
Food just came,eating,where got hands to pay,scare sei ppl dont pay meh
I've heard this thousand times....
So now ppl gave U food,U said pay,but ppl see you eating,dint calculate first
Want to scold ppl also???Saying if he says pay for the forth time
And the waitress still not here to calculate,he's NOT going to pay
Some more showed those ANNOYING....SHYT....LOUSY....faces
What's wrong with U == WTH U actually want?
Do you think others will feel like going for any meal with U & your shyt attitude?
NO WAY man....others I dont know,but me DEFINITELY NO ==
I rather NOT eating than having meals that are NOT peaceful at all
Ur faces,Ur actions,Ur languages,Ur EVERYTING make ppl feel so fcuked up seriously
*Sorry for being rude*
But I really cant think of anything to describe other than that expression
Everyone has their own personalities,own characteristics,own styles in doing things
Or U think everyone is the photostated U
What U want,what U feel like it's right,others may have different opinions
Why do U want to care so much about others
U always say dont be so busybody,care of others things
Then why the hell U care so much about others
Since U're a person that NEVER care of other ppl's feelings,so leave it
Everyone knows about it what,so leave it la
U'll be alone ONE day,U'll feel the loneliness ONE day,I'm so freaking sure
Because I'll be ONE of them who leaves U
Sorry for being mean but this is what U made me feel like treating you next time
I'm leaving in 4 months time
I will freaking leave this home,means leave the sight of you
I know what I said can be considered *derhaka*,but sorry,I cannot tahan already
I really feel very tired seeing all these and now it happens more and more often
I really really really want to have a peaceful life
I dont need SOOOOOOOO many NEGATIIVE SURPRICES
I will be thankful if U can leave me alone
Dont have to ask my for breakfast,lunch nor dinner
Dont have to ask me how I'm doing because I'll be doing fine without all Ur surprises
Dont have to even care about me when I'm sick
Because IF U care,I'll feel more sick ==
But still U're somebody to be as I have no choie
It's fated since I was borned
But what happen next I can do something to change it,and definitely I WILL
But some ppl who are staying by Ur side now is NOT fated
It's NOT even a necessary,DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT?!
They stay by your side now it's because they care for U
But dont ever think that they wont leave U
They haven leave U doesn't mean that they WONT leave U
They'll leave U someday and it's NOBODY's fault,it's Ur fault,remember THIS!
Dont think that U're the one controlling it because U'll soon not be the one
As they can hold on with their lives WITHOUT U...U KNOW?!
They are NOT depending on U
But what I can say is U DONT DESERVE PPL TREATING U GOOD
Maybe some yes because this is what they owe U
But some really...U should be thankful to have them but this is also what U dont
U never appreciate what U get,especially Ur close ones
When U're angry,U always like to scold ppl & ask ppl to leave right?
Ur wish WILL come true,trust me
And at that time,U'll not need to be so hectic asking ppl to leave
They'll leave NATURALLY,so U can even save Ur energy,time,saliva....
How good right.
& my thought last time for coming back weekly to have tea with U
I guess it's NOT going to happen anymore
I will rather stay even though there may not be any entertaiments for me
Than coming back facing those surprises
Even IF I come back,my targetted one will never be U I'm sure
Sometimes I feel bad that I have these thoughts,I even ask myself WHY am I here
I feel bad is because there're many ppl out there with problems
I should be thankful that I have no worries with money & materials I'm having
Oh even conditions
Why is this what I really want?
Okay I have to say these are what I need,without all these,it's not right too
But the MOST important thing I want is DEFINITELY not these ==
Argh I dont know lar!!!!!!!!
I need to calm down...I should calm down....Phewwwwwww
Be happy Be happy...smile smile smile.....=))))))
Shouldn't let all these unpleasant things to disturb my mood
1...2...3....
INHALEeeeeeeeeeee....EXHALEeeeeeeeee......
Okay!I'm fine now
This week will be a good week (:
This month will be a good month (:
Next month will be a good month (:
Next next month will be a good month (:
Next next next month will be a good month (:
Next next next next month wil also be a good month (:
But I will ignore these 17 years when it reaches 2011
I need a very good beginning/starting point
Though studies are getting harder & harder,but I'm NOT afraid of that at all
I will hold on if things are worth it for me to hold on
I NOT only will hold on,I will even NOT let go

This is the emo-est blog among my posts
But I'll forget and campak it soon,very soon
It's not worth it that all these to be in my brain
WASTE my space
Luckily I have you,my dear =)

Anyway I wish it'll be a memorable one for you,my dear <3

P.s 6 days(wheeeeeee)it's coming =),154 days
In my own world,
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